Alcohol: An Autistic Masking Tool?

CW: discussion of suicide

A double exposure depicting the author drinking a cocktail, staring into the camera, while another version of her takes a picture of the scene to the left. The image showing through from underneath her is a woman holding a beer, talking to someone outside the frame.
Art by Jesse Meadows

Sometimes it feels inevitable with a brain like mine, stuck on a loop of worry and terrified of everything. Standing in line at the grocery store and hearing it all at once. But I have always been a great problem solver. When I realized I could give this sensitive brain a liquid buffer, that it was as easy as pouring it over ice and choking it back, I thought I’d found quite a…